Transitions can be tough, especially when you're making changes that may be very uncomfortable physically, mentally and financially. To me, what makes transition hard is honestly fear. Let's go into detail a little bit....
I'm currently going through a transition in my life where I really don't know what's next. I've been contemplating on quitting my 9-5 for a little while now and I just turned in my resignation letter today. You're probably wondering if I have another job lined up and the answer is no, no I don't. Honestly, I wish I could sit here and tell you this super inspiring story about how I quit my job and made so much money from my blog but that is just not my reality, it is indeed the goal but not right now. I decided to quit my job for many reasons which I can explain in another blog post. So back to what I plan on doing next? Ideally I wish I could blog full time and create content for myself and possibly for others one day but the reality is I have big bills that need to be paid, I still have debt, I still have a credit score that needs to be improved, and most importantly I have a daughter in preschool now which is NOT CHEAP. From my living situation changing, to my career change, and to my daughter going from a home daycare to preschool is really overwhelming.
I've spent a lot of time in prayer, asking God what's next for me because I know there has to be more. After having my daughter this is probably one of the hardest transitions because I'm battling with what I truly love/want to do and what I need to do due to my current circumstances. I've learned how to handle these tough seasons better but that doesn't mean I still don't struggle or break down. I've also always been a planner, the person who always knows what's next, bullet points of things waiting to get checked off but this time around God was telling me to let go and FULLY let go of having control so that's what I'm doing.
I know God called me to do more and everything in me won't let that feeling go. I'm uncomfortable right now, really uncomfortable because I worked really hard get my foot into the healthcare field, I've always had a job with consistent income and such but I don't love it - not even enough for the money, not even enough for the corporate title. It took me some years to get to this point but tomorrow truly isn't promised and I just want to do more of what I love, I'm no longer willing to compromise my peace or sanity. I want to leave something significant here, I want to create, I want to help others, I want to pave a different way for my daughter and unfortunately that wasn't going to cut out.
So here I am back in this transitioning phase while trying to find balance in the midst of it all.